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February 05, 2005

casting call

I meet you outside my office building holding your backpack, which is redolent of Hawaiian Breeze air freshener and infinitesimally lighter than it was when you forgot it at our house the other night, due to the absence of a note that read "Have a great work out! I love you."

You watch me walk toward you and say to me as I hand it to you, "You look great--you could be a model." Right. I might prefer this in another model.

We walk to Starbucks, you talk about work, I listen. You drink a cup of coffee, we walk back to my office, you kiss me good-bye, and you leave. See you later. You send me an e-mail when you get to work: Thanks for having coffee with me. Right.

Lately every time I see you it feels like an audition. I know I probably won't get the part--it calls for acting skills beyond my range--though that doesn't stop me from wanting it. But I try not to be obvious. I try to be on my best behavior. I try to be pretty. I try not to relax too much.

Showtimes: Wednesday evenings, Saturday afternoons, the occasional cup of coffee, a phone call if you happen to be alone. It's only pretend, but it's what there is, and maybe the director will like me. Right.

Posted by JudyLa at 06:00 AM | Comments (0)