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March 24, 2005

snow day

We drove up in the rain and fog and traffic with the new windshield wipers leaving black streaks of rubber on the driver's side of the glass for the first 200 miles; listening to DC 101, which morphed into WXPN, which morphed into WBAB, which morphed into silence when Herself complained of a headache; up through the tip of northern Virginia along 95 through Maryland and Delaware, and 95 morphed into the NJ Turnpike and back into 95 again; up the coast as the rain turned to flurries, and by the time we were at my sister's house in Connecticut it was snowing for real.

The four inches of snow that would have closed schools for two days at home only warranted a 90-minute delay up here. The power went out in the middle of the night and I woke up freezing and lay listening to the silence of the house--at home the quiet is just an illusion, a scrim that pulled aside lets you hear the hiss of tires on the highway. Up here in the middle of the night I could imagine that I was completely alone in the world. In the dark. In the night.

I forgot how sadness travels with you even if you're four states away from its source. I thought about that until I realized I could see the objects around me and it was getting near actual morning, then I went back to sleep and dreamed that we were making love. "Do you want to know," you asked me, "how I feel now that we've been apart for six months?" "Yes," I said. "I feel absolutely no different," you told me. "I feel just the same."

That woke me up again, and it was truly morning and I could smell coffee. And now the day begins.

Posted by JudyLa at 06:00 AM | Comments (0)