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September 08, 2005

falling scales

It's funny--well, not funny, exactly, but interesting--how wrong a person can be. How wrong I can be, especially when I feel, quite strongly, that I am right. Take yesterday, for example. When I wrote yesterday that I thought The Husband probably felt jumping out of a plane together would illustrate something about our relationship and how we feel about each other ... "I want to do this with you," he said ... what he meant was, actually,"When adversity gets you down, a parachute jump will give you a whole new perspective." Or something like that. It wasn't an "I love you" pep-talk, it was something else entirely.

Yes, this is the type of thing that keeps me up at night. How I can be so wrong, so much of the time, and still insist to myself that I'm not wrong. Why I think that things are what they are not. Why I think that things are not what they are. How it is that I can fool myself into thinking what I am doing is the right thing, when it is not. And why I can see what is the wrong thing, but only after ... only after I feel like this. Only after being forced to see.

Oh, today was a bad day.

Posted by JudyLa at 11:00 PM | Comments (0)