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October 29, 2005

try again tomorrow

Tonight we turn the clocks back. I just realized, as I started typing this, that it's been a year exactly since I started keeping an online journal. Last year on Halloween weekend I asked The Husband, about whom I alternated between wanting to fling myself on and wanting to fling myself on with a sharp object, to help me set up a blog and he did, and here I am. Happy anniversary.

I went to bed last night at 8:45 just so the day would be over. When I woke up yesterday I felt fine but things just started going all to hell as soon as I got up and stuff that I would have shrugged off on any other day as mere annoyances brought me to my knees. I spent a lot of the day crying, in fact; which was alarming to me and to Herself, who assumed her father was involved somehow, but no.

Thinking that liquor could salvage my mood and wanting a decent margarita, I took Herself and her friend K.J. to dinner, where Herself acted like a five-year-old and K.J. ordered an adult meal that she didn't eat. When we got home at 8:00 there was a message from my friend B., "Can I come over?" Sure. Then the friend who was going to come today to pick up the furniture she told me she wanted (my downstairs couch and chair) called and said "I changed my mind, don't be mad." Don't be mad... except I already bought new furniture and it's been sitting in boxes in my library for a month because the old furniture hadn't been picked up. And I only bought the new furniture after she said she wanted the old furniture.

I got off the phone with my friend, sighing because although I'm the one with the problem I spent the entire phone call trying to make her feel better, and I went downstairs to where Herself was looking at TV. "What are you watching?" "Next Up." My stomach did a funny thing. The margarita was too sour. "What's that?" "A gay dating show."

I went upstairs, called B. and said, "Stay home," took two Ambien, got into bed, and went to sleep.

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