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November 24, 2005

every day, in every way

As it turned out, the snow didn't last and it was warmer and sunnier than I expected it to be, and windy. As it turned out, there were 26 people here for Thanksgiving dinner. As it turned out, there was more than enough food and it was all ready at the same time and all of it was delicious although the turkey was eaten down to the bones before I got to have some, but I kept the bones to make soup stock. As it turned out, everybody had a place to sit for dinner and the only person who spilled anything was me. As it turned out, I bought too much wine because people seemed to prefer The Husband's martinis. As it turned out, everybody talked and laughed and seemed to like each other, mostly, and had a good time.

Every once in a while I'd stand in another room and listen to people talking and laughing and having a good time. I've decided that it is against my nature to allow myself the same reprieve from the things that barb my mind and mood every day, but it sure is nice that other people can manage it.

As it turned out, the friends who so kindly brought food and drink and cutlery and china took it all back with them when they left so I didn't have to store it or clean it. As it turned out, everybody stayed sober, martinis or no, including me, though I drank just enough to skim above the condescending looks from the 20-something's, who think they will never be what I am: a middle-aged woman with a problematic marriage and children, living in the suburbs of a city and making polite conversation at a party with condescending 20-something's.

As it turned out, the house was quiet by 9:00 and clean by 10:30. As it turned out, my friend T. left her half-gallon bottle of Bailey's here and the bottle of champagne I bought as a birthday present for myself is still unopened. As it turned out, Speedy the turtle was just playing, not dead. As it turned out, when The Other One's mother called The Husband's phone and I answered it, I didn't say "Can I take a message? This is his wife." As it turned out, I was relieved for The Husband to go because it meant I could stop wanting him to stay.

As it turned out, these are the things I am thankful for.

Posted by JudyLa at 11:30 PM | Comments (0)