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March 11, 2006

isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be here

I write all day, in my head. Trying out different subjects, sentences, turns of phrase. Yet I cannot seem to get myself into this chair, onto this site, get myself to let it all out and out of my head. I talk to myself all day long and all those words go nowhere. For a long time I felt incomplete unless I wrote every day. Maybe I had a lot to say, maybe I had nothing to say but it felt like a lot; what's the difference, anyway?

Maybe I was angrier and I didn't need to be specific about where the anger came from. Now I'd like to be more specific but I can't be. I am held back by discretion, and you all know I am not exactly the poster child for The Benefits of Holding Your Tongue. I want to say more but I am so constrained to saying less that I say nothing, nothing at all.

Posted by JudyLa at 06:00 AM | Comments (0)