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September 06, 2006

Bye, honey

"When are you going to start dating?" said DrAF to me yesterday. "How are you?" I tell him to read anything I have written to him in the past two years: I'm like that, still. Nothing seems to have changed appreciably. What do people in prison for years write about, if they write letters? "Hey, it's me--just want to let you know I'm still here, in prison."

It's cloudy today, the second day of school. The geese are restless on the lake and I can hear acorns falling on the docks. Izzy, the new kitten, curls on my lap and purrs. She is a lap cat and seems to like nothing better than to be held and petted--a change from Spike, who imperiously demands affection and stalks off the moment he's had enough; and Bob, who meows until he gets attention but struggles desperately if you try to pick him up.

So here's my story.
Last Christmas the kids and I were at my sister's house in Connecticut at the same time The Husband and Spooky Girlfriend were in Connecticut. I didn't call The Husband, since he was on vacation with SG, visiting one of SG's innumerable relatives, but The Husband called me quite a bit and called one evening when my sister was having a party. Moo answered my phone and told The Husband "Mom can't talk to you because she's drinking and talking."

That I did not talk to him made The Husband furious. So furious that he brought it up in almost every argument for the next six months, how he'd tried to reach me and couldn't, how he'd needed to talk to me. Last week I found out why. The Husband had had a fight with Spooky Girlfriend and wanted to ride home with me and the kids.

You know what? For all these months I had thought how mysterious, but sweet, it was--well, maybe not sweet but touching somehow--that The Husband wanted to talk to me so badly. Can you believe that? When all he wanted was a taxi to Alexandria. Fuck me for a fool.

The Husband is in Tennessee this week, on vacation with SG once again. I hope that it is raining poisonous frogs in Tennessee this week.

Posted by JudyLa at 06:00 AM | Comments (0)