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September 16, 2006

This is what you want; this is what you get instead

Sometimes during the past two years, back when I was crazy but pretending not to be, I would go Up North to the apartment of The Husband and Miss Saigon when The Husband was alone. I would tell myself to be on my best behavior, but once I started I couldn't stop: pointless, random acts of vandalism.
The Husband went into the kitchen to make Wonderful Vietnamese Coffee and I took all the little decorative candles from the table on the deck and tossed them one by one into the woods in back.
The Husband was changing clothes so we could go out someplace and I flicked all the little model airplanes into the corner behind the television.
I used the bathroom and swished Miss Saigon's toothbrush in the--no, not the toilet; I wasn't that mean--in the water the bamboo plant was growing in.
I surreptitiously unplugged all the Plug-Ins (in a one-bedroom apartment roughly the size of my car, there were six) and hid them.
I stole magnets off the refrigerator and threw them out when I got home.
I put the photo of The Husband and Miss Saigon face down behind some books.
Stuff like that. I don't know why I mention it now, except that I think about the person who did those things and I know why she did them, and I forgive her for being so petty, even though Miss Saigon probably wouldn't.

Last night I dreamed that I bought a little, one-room house. It sat in a field surrounded by woods. The walls were white, and the room was almost perfectly square. At first it looked a little squalid and run-down, but as the dream went on and I thought about how it was mine, my own house, I liked it more and more. There was already furniture in the house, and I rearranged it to suit me. I put the crib in the corner opposite the wall, next to the bookshelves. And I moved my bed so it was adjacent to the front door, so I could see the crib and so if anybody broke in I'd know it right away instead of at the last minute.

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