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January 24, 2007

FYI, it was not a cold sore

Hello, 2007.

I went for weeks without thinking about writing here. I went for months without writing. I quit taking antidepressants in August and then decided to try not being so pissed-off all the time, and suddenly I had nothing to say. --Or maybe I never had anything to say, and just became aware of it? But fall 2006 came and went, and my birthday (51, my GOD), and Halloween, Thanksgiving, and then the hardest holiday of the year, and everybody stayed unmedicated and we all managed to be happy, if you can imagine it.

Now it's January and gray, but still not especially cold, but there's something about the landscape that makes me broody and so here I am again.

I am pleased to report that I've managed to keep my resolution to stop being livid 24/7. I'm not saying that I'm not still deeply angry (think seething caldron of fury), but I find it easier now to deal with it, as they say, more "appropriately." I don't hate Miss Saigon, or even hold a grudge, really; though it aggravates me when The Husband goes out of his way to tell me that M.S. and I have "exactly the same taste; it's amazing." I can't quite figure out what my response ought to be. What springs immediately to my mind when he says this is "Fuck You." I immediately discard it in favor of "Of course! Because we're actually sisters, only I have a bigger bust and moral backbone." But I don't say this, either, opting instead for sulky silence. What can I tell you, change is hard.

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