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August 07, 2007

a brief example of the difference between women and men

I wrote a letter to The Husband last week, a summing-up of how I've been feeling and what I've been thinking about the events of the past few weeks. I thought about writing the letter for a couple of days.

Once I sat down and started the letter, it took me about an hour and a half to write one page. Then it took another hour to go back and winnow out everything that sounded cranky or judgmental.

I waited another day to mail it out, in case I changed my mind. Once it was mailed, I worried about it. Wondering if I should have written less. Or written more. Or sounded friendlier. Or nicer.

He was away on business and didn't get home until Saturday. I wondered what his response would be to the things I had said to him.

Yesterday, the pay-off. "I read your letter. It was really well written. You're a good writer."

The end.

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August 05, 2007

a little down with a lifetime to go

I got a new vacuum cleaner, one of the kind that has no bag but instead a clear plastic tube where the sucked up dirt goes. You can watch all the pet fur and sand and hair whirl around in the tube and be simultaneously horrified and impressed at how much crap you live with and walk around on every day, never thinking about it because it's hidden. Until it isn't.

So the last time I wrote here was in January, when I had a sunnier outlook on life. Right now I'd say I'm mostly cloudy with a chance of rain. A lot of things have happened since January; some of which I guess I'll get to if I keep writing. But not right now.

It's the winding-down part of summer. Back-to-school sales everywhere. The city is quiet; the calm before the storm. This year we have stayed home; work is crazy and I just couldn't get it together to plan anything more fabulous than going to the farmer's market on Sunday mornings--and even that we've only done twice. Considering arranging for pet care, packing up and driving to my sister's house just gives me a stomach-ache. And I seem to have spent all my getaway money on car repairs (since last fall: $5,000) and new phones for Herself and Moo (in one week: $380).

How I spent my summer vacation: Thought about going back on the antidepressants. So little effort required.

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